Carta a Lutz

Sobre primeiro perído de 2015

Lutz,

Eu não mandarei essa carta a você. Talvez no futuro eu pense nisso, mas no momento não sou capaz. Gostaria que houvesse alguma maneira de te agradecer peloque você fez por mim, talvez até sem querer.
Estava tão assustada pensando que seria reprovada por falta que demorei para prestar atenção em você. Mas você prestou atenção em mim e me deu uns puxões de orelha leves e você notou meu esforço.
Você não havia como saber o que estava acontecendo comigo, por que eu estava sendo desleixada. Eu era assim mesmo ou havia algo errado? Você não tinha como saber nesse primeiro momento e eu nunca cheguei para conversar com você.
Mas você não me reprovou por falta. Eu sabia que você não me reprovaria por isso, internamente eu sabia. Não foi o suficiente para eu parar de ter medo.
Quando no último dia após 50 horas acordada e ter vivido o dia mais caótico da minha vida e depois viver mais umas 40 horas de pesadelo, eu cheguei sem estar com a torre pronta e vendo torres fantásticas, eu quis chorar. Eu sabia que tinha te chateado. Eu não queria isso, eu havia conseguido fazer todos os trabalhos mas eu sabia que eles não estavam maravilhosos, Estava dentro de um pesadelo e logo em seguida tinha mais pesadelos e a vida estava no geral muito ruim. O suficiente para eu achar que iria quebrar, pela primeira vez.
Passar na sua matéria, foi uma redenção para mim. Eu acreditei que a minha punição por não ter sido tão boa, devia ser de uns 5 pontos, o que me deixaria reprovada. Você não. Você me perdoou onde eu não havia me perdoado. E por isso, eu serei eternamente grata. Porque me fez notar que eu mereço esse perdão. E nessa hora tão escura, isso foi o presente mais importante que alguém poderia me dar.

Obrigada,

RC²

Just a reminder....

Remember that night? Do you remember this night?
It has been a shitstorm week and everything around is chaos but suddenly you thought about the universe and you remembered how that story was, the one you were creating whose characters who didn't have a name but inside you had given them names after an while but you didn't tell anybody about it because you needed to took this secrets for your grave but you couldn't avoid leaving little secrets hidden? Yes, that story.  I don't remember the name right now but I hope you will remember. You liked the title and then you hated it. I don't remember why.
Your world view changed now and you should write this story. It is what you need and what you think.  It is a story sculpt in your head for so long. So I hope you write it. I hope you can make people understand how complex and little is our existence and how everything has a reason and that is why God needs to exist. Please remember me.
Do it.

Sonho

Hoje você sonhou que estava na Itália fazendo intercâmbio Mas só se falava inglês na faculdade. Só que antes você sonhou que estava indo no cinema com seus pais e era um cinema mega doido onde volta e meia surgiam sorvetes grátis em copinhos e tia desafios. E um bando de exposição e eu há sonhei com esse cinema antes mas ele ficava em um hotel. Sabe, aquele cinema gigante dourado? Mas esse era vermelho e preto por fora mega high tech. Interessante a beça.
E você estava mostrando o local para sua mãe. 
Depois você viajou e lá era friozinho e estava no final do primeiro bimestre e havia uma exposição e você tava pensando em como divulgar seu Blog de quadrinhos e em como grudar coisas nas paredes sem o vento derrubar.  Aí você pensou em pendurar na parte onde todo mundo desce para ir andando para a faculdade que era uma clareira. E estava começando a nevar. 
Aí você estava pegando o ônibus para casa e teve alguém no onibus perguntando onde era a international school of design.  Era um casal bem mochileiro mas o cara tava praticamente sem casaco. E eu fui lá tentando explicar em inglês onde era até que surge uma garota e explica em português porque né,  eles tinham que ser brasileiros.
Então ficamos conversando a tarde inteira e ela tava procurando o banco do Brasil e fomos os quatro até lá e depois fomos numa sauna e já tinha gente conhecida lá e o banheiro era masculino e feminino e começamos a discutir sobre como a Bíblia proíbe sexo anal.
E eu comecei a citar as coisas que proíbem na criação de nova Jerusalém.
O que inclui sexo anal e olhar nos olhos quando faz sexo.  O mais estranho foi essa conversa.   E estar pelada endeusando conversava isso com um cara e não ser sexual

About Rox and Ax and the AU's that we never talk about

Bizarramente uma chape estranha de novo baseada em uma personagem. cmidriel was the last one, wasn`t ?

But you love the almost twins and they are in every story in your mind. even the ones when they are not as cool as Alexiel' Story, like in the Harry Potter AU, or . Well, in the Star Trek AU they are almost as cool as Alexiel' Story. And we have polyamory relationship there and oh those stories. It is really good that I'm wrting this to you. You need it, you know. It is an excelent idea. Because time will pass and all of this will come someday and you are not going to remember it well and you will search for a link that could trigger your memory but you can not find? Ah the frustration.

So in the Star Trek AU they are better because Axel, Roxas and Alexiel are from a different race, somewhat like vulcans but who embraced sex and martial arts instead of stoic meditation. Sorry, Spock. But they are high telepaths and they become better with the years.  They marry and absorb qualities from other races and then they control them. They development into a slave race. And just now they are becoming to use their powers from good. And they created the United Galaxy Republic. It is not Klingon territory and not federation territory. Alexiel, the prince reagent and heir of the almost-Vulcan kingdom resolves to enlist to UGR after her brother's death (and a period of drugs and rock and roll with her ex-girlfriend/almost fiancee/childhood friends Axel and her little sister not so little Roxas who remind her too much of her own brother). In the UGR she quickly rise through the ranks and ends in special class with Midrel, her twin brother Lionel , Sebastian and Duo. 

(No final em seis meses e dinheiro de passagem e dinheiro de material - que eu fui capaz de gastar comigo mesma- eu evolui muito mais do que seis meses e com mais dinheiro. porque eu cedo a inércia muito fácil e por isso que é importante por enquanto)

Midrel and Lionel, sons of the Vulcan Biotech and the commander of Valent , are the best students. Lionel is a healer and he tries to hide his Vulcan nature to extremes in order to not violate the privacy of his pacients. Midrel wants to be the commander of the Valiant II, a remake of her father' ship. When she discovered they were building it she quickly enlists with her twin and in thee years she goes to the commander course. But obviosly Alexiel was there already. And the three specials ships would be giver to the 3 best students in this order, Valiant, Phoenix and Endure. In the end, after a year of hostility, Alexiel makes it in second for .02 points and Midrel in first, making her dream come true with her second officer Duo.

Sebastian stays with Alexiel in the Phoenix. Unlike Valiant which was a diplmoatic/research ship (like Enterprise but with less people in red because their system was simpler) and Endure which was a defense ship, Phoenix was a ship for attack and because of that it used to have a great number of deaths and almost no one could complete the 4 years mission. But the higher salary compensate for the desperate one. Alexiel made it better with a porcentage rate that now on her third mission makes the Phoenix actually a great idea atracting more people everyday. 

Sebastian and Duo are childhood friends of Mikhael and Lionel. Sebastian came first. He was adopted into the captain's family when the twins were four and Salvatore the half brother full Vulcan were 7. His original family were extremaly rich and were in a desaster likely that one in Tarsus. But they bought with everything they had tickets to save their heir. But they didn't took him and leave them with their relatives abroad. Instead Sebastian was left with concubines and made a slave until the Valiant made a mission there and the captain was so pissed with the state everything was that he almost murdered the leader but in the end he controled himself and the judment could be fair. But he didn't want the kid to be  left alone and Sebastian didn't speak. So the boy stayed with him and when it was verified that their other relatives didn't care, they adopted him.

Duo was an heir of a criminal family. Often they didn't care what happended with him but Duo saw more murderers than a kid should have seen. And were hit more times that a kid should have been (wich is none, just so you know - for both questions) . So when his father tells him that nothing would make him happy than to end with the twins half-bread, Duo tries to kill Lionel. But in the end Mikhael saves Lionel and is really hurt and Duo thinks she is dead and he almost dies with it but Lionel calls their mothers throught the bond and since mIkhael is half breed she is more resistant then mostly people.

well I'm really tired right now and I hope me in the future understand everything I said here. Ah names are always in caps. And together how they should be